Kelle Groom‘s essay, “How to Live with Uncertainty,” appears in our Spring 2012 issue, guest edited by Nick Flynn. “‘How to Live with Uncertainty” opens with these lines:
The motel over the bridge could be demolished as early as spring, and a dollar store there overlooking the river and what I saw—a woman propped between two men. Her body looked stiffly drunk or drugged the way she was hustled upright with the posture of a fence. Held up by the men, like posts on either side. Heavy, older. She walked as if there was something unmended inside her.
Here, Kelle Groom describes her process:
I like the form of instructional essays. The clarity and numbered steps, the opportunity to learn. I was interested to see what would happen if, into an essay form in which I would be expected to supply expertise on a subject, I entered lost. I was afraid to write this piece, as if by keeping quiet about fear and uncertainty, I could contain it. Elements recurred – the freeze, mortality – like a rope thrown from point to point. The surprise of it, for me, was the way the writing of this essay taught me things I didn’t know.
(Photo by Honor Moore.)